An Ode To You..

At times,
Its too much of a pain to bear -
The memoirs of my yester-years,
Flashes of all that
Which had always brought a smile,
Can now only
Be a testimony of my grief.
Remorse struck-
I wander lonely in mind,
Looking for a clue-
Any cue-
To absolve me of my guilt.
My sorrow pools dark-
In my eyes-
As I see your images.
Wishing yet again-
Time after time-
That I had seen you last.
Selfishly I had run away.
From all that had held dear.
Now I pine- for all that's lost.
Urge to hold onto the shreds-
Of the bitter pieces of my fate.
Shattered remains, mar my
Reality of today.
As I let my thoughts,
Cloud my vision.
Without you,
Its a deep void- unconquered.
Shall never be strong enough too.
My soul lies tormented-
As I let the rivulets flow.
My words try to out-pace them-
My means of expunging-
My only panacea-
To hope for some peace-
Within.