Run@way

I run away
From everything dear.
From everything that speaks of bonds-
As it creates bondages.
I run away in my mind-
From you-
'Coz it's you to whom I belong.
But who must hurt me again.
Isn't that the natural path-
Of decease and its disease ?
I move away-
From the mist of magic-
Its sultry in its seduction-
That traps me in its honeycomb.
I succumb-
To the cyst of logic-
That's killed my wombed dreams-
Shattered shells lie trodden.
Trust on tryst lies misplaced,
As destiny and fate seem hollow words,
To me.
We had to meet-
Only to part, I feel.
I try to barricade myself,
From your advance-
Your embrace completes me.
I long for the shelter your arms give,
The surety your presence imparts-
But everytime our eyes meet -
My eyes stray to the imaginary clock ticking by-
Counting seconds-
Counting stars.
I am lost in your glow-
Pulled to you like a moth to a flame-
But do fireflies burn in their own fire too?
I feel sated-
With you.
Yet back of my mind-
I stare at days of without you.
It's hard, for me-
To see life sans you.
But that seems an inevitability-
Which we cannot escape.
We say the three words of love,
With all the truth that we can muster.
We look deep into each others' eyes-
As we breathe in the scent-
Wishing time stood still.
My long winding path of life,
Seems hazy and blurred ahead-
As the only concrete I could ever see-
But for my own sanity,
I have to see that crumble too.
I would not want to pick up the pieces ever.
The pain seems to be an iridescent part of me already.