Photograph

A part of me,
Stares in awe-
At the photographs,
Remembering the tangled.
Disbelief at suspension ;
Mesmerized by the meanders.
A wry smile suffuses,
Humor mustn't be lost.
Specially if its self-inflicted.
So should I question myself now?
The voluntary blindness that
I had sought refuge at?
Must I berate myself to my self-degradation,
Degenerate into a composite waste ?
I reach across,
To tear away the cobwebs-
That cloud my vision now.
In my ears ,
The banshee sings out  loud-
The words heard.
The words drilled in thus.
With the photographs,
Have died a lot of dreams.
A lot of me too.
The answers to questions,
Only bring despair.
As truth begets truth,
It negates efforts to search
For meanings not truly there.
The erstwhile peace,
Now steals over me like a disease.
Truly, we had no love-
But a beautiful deceit.
It seems, we were never united-
To be divided now.
What we had had-
Was just a dream.
 I've found visions of many things that never have been
Adrift in memories and your specter behind me.
And now I feel free of the misleading nectar,
Of your lies - and the folly in my sweet surrender.
Affirmation is supreme,
In my way to glory-
Sans an effigy of you-
That is fast receding.

Orange Blooms

As I sit,
Lost in my far away dreamland,
My gaze set on the grey horizon beyond-
With the cool wind as my Pacific -
My eyes perchance,
Chance upon tiny orange blooms-
Standing up tall,
Braving the drift.
I look at them-enchanted.
Unbeknownst of my knowledge,
They had existed for so long,
I look around my terrace,
Amazed - at the intricate aesthetics-
Of the myriad colors splashing across.
The orange fruits stare me down,
They seems to be saying something to me.
Reprimand mayhaps of my hapless ways.
The orange color a soothing blaze,
Bold yet subtle,
Its beauty an Aphrodite in essence.
As the wind gently rustles them,
And the rain droplets shower their love,
The orange blooms dance happily-
Set to the tune of their earthly simplicity.
Unique in unity too,
Joyful in their skin-
A league ahead  of  the rest,
They seek no pretense.
And mesmerized as I looked on,
Somewhere, I sensed a connect -
Of being - of totality -
Of a solitary peace - and its resonance.
My aura an orange hue-
As I underplay the basics.
Through the Looking Glass thus,
I sought my own mirage